I retrace my path of yesterdays, a step and two and three
At the edge of where the ocean comes to land
And where my heart is free…
*
I pause in awestruck wonder…
An enormous hourglass of wood and clearest crystal
Suspended above the terra firma, afloat in a cloudy sky
I cannot see you within, my love
But, my heart knows you are there and I am lost in why…
*
The sands of a thousand days and more
Have flown and settled here one simple grain by one
*
A life they make, full and rich with much of this and that
Yet, as I stand outside of it and gaze at the towering mountain within….
*
I know in my very depths…
My love…he cannot breathe…
For the weight of it all upon him now, he has never any ease
*
The sands of time are closing in with each and every passing day
They tighten so about him
He cannot rest, or find his way
*
Infinitely it swirls upon itself letting not a single thing escape
My thoughts, they spiral in a pleading search
Hoping for an answer robed in grace
*
I am very small…whatever can I do…
*
Within my reach a gleaming sword stands ready
In silence does it wait
I fear it will be too much for me to wield
I fear I will fall short…
But, for my love
I choose and try
To take it firmly by the hilt
And raise it high
I swing with all I am
And although the glass is met…it trembles only slightly
Over and over I brandish the blade
Against the clear enclosure
Yet, to no avail…
Worn and weary…I fear that I have failed
I drop the steel,
Watching as it crashes to the ground
…my heart begins to weep…
…to cry without a sound…
*
This trap of holding time
How smooth and cold it is, and heavy with the world,
I close my eyes
While my fingers, feather soft reach forth in gentle touch…
And, with such as that, in less than a whisper
I hear the echo of a break begin…
A tiny fissure runs along the side…
*
What ray of hope is this!
*
One single grain of sand slips out
Racing through the air to solid earth
Another follows…and another still…
Until it becomes a healing stream of letting go…
*
The sandy scars of days that have been crushed upon each other
Swiftly fall away…
The rhythm of my heart begins to beat anew
As the melody of life does play
*
Soon enough the weight on him will lighten
My love will breathe once more
The morning air of a hopeful dawn
Fresh and simply pure
*
Time is neither linear or by a circle bound
*
One needn’t have an hourglass
To forever turn
And so command the moments
Within your heart to always burn
*
As the minutes and the hours fall
Joy and sorrow, both therein
We seek to collect them each around us
In a vain attempt to hold too many all at once
It is a fearful thing, this holding
And we begin to suffer from the force of it
*
Let the sand slip easily through
And come to rest where it belongs, upon an open shore
Caressed by tender winds
Kissed hungrily by ocean waves of evermore
*
If we would have breath to live
And heart to love
We cannot carry the entirety of our days
We were never asked to…
*
Like the sturdy world beneath our feet,
Moments are intended to hold Us…
Not us to hold them…
*
Mark the days if you must, my love
But only live them one by one
And let each of them gently go when their now is done…
*
Time was never meant to be contained within a glass
No matter how beautifully crafted it may be
*
So, I offer you this…
*
Gaze sweet and long into the endless ever blue
Warm yourself in the fire of the golden rising sun
Wish for wisdom from your guiding star
Dream deeply in the night for all the beauty yet to come
*
And last but mostly this, I hope for you to fly…
And breathe in ease and knowing love
I shall always be nearby…
****
ellie894 January 2, 2018
