White sky days…
I love them as much as blue sky days. Like an empty page waiting to be filled with text, handwriting, or a splash of paint, there is a story in a white sky day. Your story. My story. A legend. A fairytale. A hero. Blue sky days carry me into forever. White sky days bring forever home to me. The air is heavy with moisture as though I’m in the heart of the cloud itself and it is holding me close to the earth in a gentle embrace. White goes on as endlessly as blue does but closer somehow. These days slow me down inside and out leaving behind an inner repose that calms my soul of its worldly concerns. I look more closely at the smallest things. My eye searches the forest floor rather than soaring to the tops of the tallest pines. White sky days don’t always bring rain. Nevertheless, there is a respite from the brightness of the sun. No squinting today. Perhaps that’s why I see more. The brightest sun on the bluest day lifts my spirits joyfully but keeps my eye moving in self-defense. Some moments are beautiful because of the softness in the air rather than in the glory of the light.
Science tells me that white is not the absence of color but rather the gathering together of all color. Whether it is in the form of a bit of glass or a raindrop, a prism takes white light apart and we are gifted with a rainbow. The chance to see that out of the seeming nothingness of white comes the blessing of all color. How wonderful is that?! An artist chooses white to guide my eye carefully through a painting. At least that’s what I’ve read and after plenty of gazing, it does seem to work out that way. A dash of white draws me from this place to the next one, from a hand to a cheekbone to the twinkle of an eye, the very window to the soul. Does the Artist create it just so? The light is softer on a day like this allowing me to gaze as long as I like.
The whites of the ground reach out to me as though just a smidgen of eternity has fallen to the earth. These days have a lonesome feel to them. Not in a sad way. Rather, it is as though there is something unseen and you feel it must be lovely, if only… When rainfall does accompany a day such as this then soon faery mushrooms will emerge here and there and the tiniest frogs will cover my path. One can almost set a clock by these moments. When enough moisture comes to rest on the ground mushrooms gather within themselves all they need to put on a lovely show. I look forward to them and begin watching for a hint of a dirt mound suggesting there’s a surprise waiting. Mushrooms rise up in the same places over and over again. Usually something has died in that spot, the remains of a tree decaying invisibly under foot. Even in its absence the mighty tree continues to offer life. Is anything ever truly gone away? Next time you notice one mushroom, look around, there may in fact be a circle of them where the base of a majestic tree once stood. Legend names that a magical faery ring. First a tiny mountain of earth is disturbed. The next day I might begin to see a touch of color. After that it is truly a mushroom but still contained within its own reality, a closed umbrella waiting to open at the first sign of rain.
Finally and dramatically it opens itself to the world in trust. Mushroom! A room of mush? A room for mush? Room to gather what seems mush to me and create something stunning in its complexity and beauty although sadly short-lived. Mushrooms of all sizes shapes and colors seem to fall in the realm of the faery world, don’t they. They are petite and invisible most of the time but when they do show themselves there always seems to be a bit of magic nearby as though you might have just missed something quite extraordinary when you were blinking. Was that a hint of a wing or only a leaf being carried by the breeze? Who can tell? By the following day one can already see signs of the end. The tiny life begins to split and brown around the edges. Its bright color of the day before is fading. In one more day it will be gone altogether and perhaps forgotten. Like the snows of winter it will return though, on the heels of a white sky day. Then once more I will slow to the world and open my heart to the eternity hiding in the smallest seemingly bit of nothing.
Nearby
Happy Birthday Mimi!
Dorothy Marie Smith. Mimi, to me. Today is her birthday. She would be 108 years old today!
She lived to be 99 and was fiercely independent taking care of her own home and affairs up until the last few weeks of her life. At a meagre 4 feet 11 inches tall she was quite a force to be reckoned with. Born and raised in Chicago in the early 20th century she brought her lifelong love of the Cubs with her when she moved south.
Her own mother died in the Spanish flu pandemic of 1918 when she was only 8 years old leaving behind a husband and two small girls, Dorothy and Hazel. Dorothy had only a single gift from her mother, a white ceramic child’s tea set. Dorothy’s strongest memory of her mother Mary was of holding hands with one another as they walked to church on Sundays. It may have been her only memory of Mary. At least it’s the only one she ever shared with me. The rest of Dorothy’s early life was spent mostly in the care of the Episcopal nuns who ran the school which she attended. She and her sister may have boarded there as well. I’m not certain of that though.
Dorothy was a bright student who worked hard at her school work without the aid of either computers or google! She was accepted to Northwestern University to study journalism at a time when that was not easily accessible to women. Wow! That is amazing to me. What an opportunity that must have been. But, how frightening as well. I’m sure it wasn’t a role that society approved of for her in the early 20’s in Chicago. Her teacher was very disappointed that she dropped out and didn’t see it through.
It was love of course. Blume Joseph Rasch brought her to Louisiana where his large family of parents, brothers and sisters lived. Dorothy and Blume had 2 girls and a boy. She outlived two of her children. How often I heard her say that the pain of losing a child is something a mother never gets over. I’m not sure when or how they moved to Texas. But at some point in the 1940’s they set up housekeeping in Houston. For a while she earned a living by running “The Store” as I used to hear it.
Mrs. Rasch’s Variety Store! It was within walking distance of their house and had exactly what the name implies, variety. She sold everything from fabric on the bolt,to bric a brac and household goods. I don’t think she dealt in groceries at all but outside of that Mrs. Rasch’s carried a little bit of everything. Eventually the shop closed up and Blume left Dorothy. The timing of those two parts of her life is less than clear to me. So many things she just didn’t talk about. She may not have told many stories about her life but she certainly knew how to keep it all going. Mimi was a very talented seamstress as well. As long as I can remember women came to her home for both alterations and original creations. For a while she even sewed a line of dresses for little girls for Neiman Marcus under the label of Sugar Plum Originals. I wonder from time to time if any of those dresses are still around, perhaps tucked away in a cedar chest of memories. Mimi never learned to drive and was rather content with that state of affairs. She managed well and knew how to keep a house stocked against whatever might come. Raising children through the depression and later on her own brought out both ingenuity and frugality, qualities that she never lost.
She was good with children. She would get right down on the floor with me to play. And, I always had a warm winter coat because of her. She taught me to hang clothes on a line, something that I still love to do in this age of dryers. A dryer will wear your clothes out faster than anything else. I know how to put in a zipper the right way thanks to her. Patterns will tell you otherwise, but a zipper should almost always be installed when a garment is still in the flat stage. At my Mimi’s house there was always sweet tea in the fridge and a swing in the backyard. Sometimes a swing is the place to talk about everything and sometimes it’s a place to simply take comfort in the quiet of being with someone you love. Of all the many things that Mimi excelled at cooking was never really at the top of that list. Don’t get me wrong. Her kitchen was open and she made certain that anything on either two legs or four had a full tummy. But when it comes to food my thoughts turn to one single item…lemon pound cake with citrus glaze. It was her go to cake for any occasion. I have more than one handwritten copy of her recipe that she shared with me over the years. As time moved on she would forget that she had already given it to me. That’s ok. I’m happy to have multiple copies. One day I’ll pass them along myself. Perhaps I’ll even frame them first. I wonder if that’s why I love the taste of lemon and the smell of citrus in almost any form. Now plants, that’s another story altogether. She was a wiz with all things green. Her azaleas grew so big that she was unable to mulch them from the front. So, she would move aside the furniture in the living room, open the windows and bring her pine needles through the house dumping them out the open window and onto the tender roots of her azaleas. Azalea roots are shallow and so need plenty of care and shade. Mimi’s last husband struggled with alcoholism early in their marriage and was abusive to her both physically and verbally. She would call my mother who would take me with her over to the house to be with Mimi and take her to see a doctor if necessary. He gave up drinking and became a gentle bear of a man who loved Mimi and gave her anything and everything never hurting her again I’m happy to say. Dorothy was strong willed to say the least. Once she was taking me fishing and told me that I needed to wear a hat. Now I know she was right. At the time however, I had no desire to wear a hat. She kept on and finally looked me in the eye and proclaimed me to be stubborn. I have no idea what came over me ( I was a fantastically quiet and shy child) but I looked back at her and said – stubborn just like my Mimi. I guess I rendered her speechless for a moment because I don’t remember anything after that except that I indeed took the hat with me to go fishing. Life is lived so differently from one person to the next. I respect and admire cultures that value all ages of life and not just the young. There is a richness that derives from experience. To get up each morning and face the day ahead offers opportunity, a new chance to learn and to love. I myself have been blessed with more mornings than some people and fewer than others. I love the stories of those who have lived more days than me! They fill me with awe and hope and even laughter. I’m grateful to have so many stories of Dorothy Marie. I’m proud to share her name. Marie is my middle name also. I could sit here and write about her all afternoon. Instead I think I’ll bring some flowers in from the yard and situate them in a mason jar. Then…I’ll bake up her lemon pound cake with citrus glaze and enjoy a glass of sweet tea in my backyard swing. Happy Birthday Mimi!
Happy May Day!
Happy May Day! Today is the very first day of the merry merry month of May .
May is a lovely name for a woman. May Anne Brodie. Whoever might she be? “May I?” is one of the nicest ways to ask permission. May I carry your books, the shy little gentleman asks the young lady. May bestows great blessing from one to another. May a blue sky smile above you and your path be always clear. May day! May day! A cry for help comes through loud and strong. How curious that one seems to me. Perhaps if I add a few more words it becomes more clear. May I please have help this day! I wonder if it began just like that so long ago and then someone in haste and emergency shortened it to – May day! May delights us with all things soft and feminine. Tradition has it that on this day one should leave an anonymous gift of flowers on someone’s door. A small bouquet with a satin ribbon for hanging…
May your heart be filled with joy
May you know beauty in all things
May you ask a wonderful question
May you hear a sweet reply
May your home be filled with laughter
May you receive help in time of need
and
May you always be blessed with flowers

Happy Happy May Day!
island time
There is nothing better than the encouragement of a good friend. – Katharine Butler Hathaway
Like the healing power of “island time”. Like the soothing respite of shade in the hot summer sun. Like the surprise of the faery mushroom that always follows the rain. Like cookies and sweet tea on the back porch swing. Friendship nourishes the soul. Friends never have enough time to share all that’s in their heart. There is always one thing more to say. And yet no matter how many days have passed on the calendar since their last visit, when they find one another again it’s as if they had never been apart. How treasured is the one who slows down to be with you when the rest of the world speeds past. Friendship like nothing else I can think of is a beautiful beautiful choice. And how very grateful I am.
Morning whispers
this day…
humble beginnings quiet and calm…
mystery and treasure hidden in sight…
swirling and twirling high with delight…
whether sorrow or song it will linger awhile and soon drift on…
questions unanswered… tender mercies i pray…
small well placed moments of brightness and strength…
wisdom to see… hope to move on…
a house woven lightly. a place to belong…
as the door to this day opens gently, i wonder of all of the joy deep within. this day. this one day before me. i open my heart to all that is. laughter and sorrow. hope and despair. whatever it offers may i face it with grace…
Enjoy this Rhyme one Word at at Time
Dr. Seuss has been whispering in my ear since I awakened this morning. I’ve never had a day quite like this. Almost all of my thoughts came out in rhyme! I’ve lost track of how many tidbits I’ve scribbled here and there. Yes, everywhere. Even now as I write this introduction I’m trying Not to give in to the rhyming. Clearly, I’m failing. It’s been pretty silly and ridiculous actually and I’ve wondered more than once if this is how Theodore Geisel spent his days. Definitely jolly! I had thoughts of a far different post today. Alas, that was not to be. Another day perhaps. However, I finally gave in to the moment and… Voila!
So many words.
so little time.
if only they’d fit on the face of a dime.
I could carry them with me,
all round the world.
use them up slowly for this thing and that.
even keep some stuffed up in the brim of my hat.
for you never, you never, you never do know,
when just the right word will take over the show.
and when I curl up to fall fast asleep,
I’ll tuck them there too in the dark and the deep.
cause even a place filled with fantastical dreams,
needs a few wonderful words to make it burst at the seams.
graceful and giggle and gotcha and giver,
they set me afire, atremble, aquiver
ah the words that will fit on the face of that dime,
I’d go on and on, if we only had time.
what about you?
what do you say?
how many words do you keep on your shelf?
are you stingy and share them with only your elf?
bring them out often!
give them away!
they’re free don’t you know?!
oh please let them play!

Everyone’s Hard is Hard
Everyone’s
Hard
Is
Hard
Not as hard as. Not harder than. Not hardest. Everyone’s hard is hard. Everyone’s? Yes…
I discovered this statement a year ago while listening to a podcast. For a while now I have been trying to write about it. I kept talking myself out of it, because I can come up with so many exceptions.
What about the woman who walks hours a day for a single bucket of clean water, wouldn’t that be harder? Is it harder to lose someone you love to accident or illness? Is it harder to mother a child with depression or autism?
So I continued to circle around in a disclaimer of sorts. Hard is Hard, except for this and this and oh wait, this too. All of those things must be harder than others. So, I would pull back again. How can I say that hard is hard, when there is so much “harder” in the world.
Still I returned humbly to the words – Everyone’s hard is hard. In my heart I believe it to be true somehow. Undeniably there is heartache in the world and it finds each of us where we are. This is a dangerous cliff edge dropping to nowhere in an attempt to grade the hardness of personal experience. The harder and the hardest.
When one begins to compare and compete and define what harder looks like then we all lose ground. We cannot know what it feels like to the toddler falling over and again while learning to walk. The shy young child away from home for hours at a time in this new and scary thing called school. Walking the halls wondering if you’ll be the only one not invited to the dance. Working more than one job to make ends meet and still having to choose between paying the electric bill or buying food this week. Aren’t each of these hard?
If I sat here for just one day this list of what’s hard could fill the world-wide web. That humbles me. It is All worthy! I can imagine That list and even now the suffering and immensity of it brings tears to my eyes. What I cannot ever imagine is ranking it. A list of the top 100 hards! How awful would that be?!
I would never tell the teenager uninvited to that dance that his pain has no value. The child has bumps and bruises from falling but learns to walk. To Walk! What an amazing moment! There are no right answers to the questions I posed in the beginning. One is not harder than the other. They are each painful in their own way to the one who lives them.
In the last few days I have been touched by more than one person who could easily lay claim to their own life being harder than that of those around them. But not one of them has. Not one. Each of them has inspired me with their smile and their calm or laughing insistence that all shall be well in no time. They have even gone so far as to point to the hardships of others with concern and empathy.
The struggles we face in life open the door of compassion if we will only let them. They provide us with the chance to show deep love and concern for those who share this earth with us. It is that compassion learned through the trials of life that urges me to engage in the sufferings of the world in a meaningful way.
Because I have held a feverish child in the night I want all mothers to rest knowing their baby is protected from polio. Because I have felt left out at moments in my own life I reach out to the ones sitting alone at the edge of experience.
Because…
I love rocks! I have loved rocks since I was a little girl. Everywhere I went I would return with at least one small rock in my pocket. Oh, the dilemma of narrowing it to one or two! All rocks are wonderful just like the ones here. I suspect you’ll trust me when I tell you that despite their different outward appearances, each and every one of them is hard. Even the lovely glass dish that holds them is hard.
Their environments and circumstances have led them to be bound tightly together in just such a way that their beauty shines forth and their hardness protects them. In fact, we value rocks because of their hard nature. Hard is what makes them strong. However, no matter how well time and effort have crafted them to be what they are, the right amount of pressure in the right spot will cause them to crack. Wait… in this new fissure, sand will accumulate, rainwater will gather, and wind or animal will provide a seed.
Soon enough where there was once something strong and hard which itself was broken by a hard event, there is now the chance to hold and nurture a beautiful new life.
Hard is Hard. Wherever you are today and whatever pain hides in your heart please know…
Everyone’s
Hard
is
Hard
lunch
Mimi!

First of the season! She’s huge! As big as my hand! As pure as a winter snow! As glorious as the full moon she’s named for! She’s just wonderful!
She never blossoms this early! Twenty five years ago my grandmother gave me the starter for this moon flower plant. So, I think of Mimi when she blooms. Open only to the night and early morning, in a few hours she will disappear to the day. I could so easily have missed her. Thank goodness I didn’t. Moon flowers are in the night shade family so they’re poisonous if ingested. But to some night creatures they offer the sweetest life giving nectar. They only open at night and they only open once. Although I’m not a night creature, she offers me a beautiful gift as well. What small world will you see today that will shower you with Joy?!

























